June 26, 2012

I am not...

On the verge of tears and this can't be good.

I am not upset that my mother doesn't support my career choice.
I am not upset that I was just told by my mother that my current job isn't paying me enough. Ya know sometimes we accept jobs because we LOVE them, not because of the pay.
I am not upset and frustrated that my tutoring check is somewhere in the mail and I haven't received it yet.
I am not mad at the fact that I am back to being a completely broke grad student.
I am not overwhelmed at the fact that I have to lesson plan and create syllabi for 4 weeks of public policy curriculum.
I am not sad about the fact that I'm about to turn 25 and not where I want to be in life.
I am not beating myself up for the fact that the more I do, the less I feel I accomplish.
I am not feeling pathetic and lame.
I am not depressed over the fact that my blogger and tumblr friends understand me better than my actual friends.
I am not going to let my negativity bring me down, tomorrow is a new day and I hope know it will be better.

1 comment:

  1. i think i need to write like this! I AM wishing you a happy 25th! and i had no idea where i was going to be at 25. I still feel behind but if we don't feel like we're behind then we have nothing to push us towards our next set of amazing accomplishments. Pa'lante chica! xo

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